बनू मै प्रेम दीवानी

"Kaaga sab tan khaayiyo
mera chun chun khaiyo maas
Do naina mat khayiyo
mujhe piya Milan ki aas
Ranjha ranjha kardi
ni main aape ranjha huin
Ranjha main vich, main ranjhe vich
Hor khayal na koi….
Haaji log mecca nu jaande
main jaana takhat hazaare
Ik val yaaru te val kaaba,
bhaave khol kitaaba saare"
- Dev Kohli

Great were the men who could tread the path that leads to God , great were the men who could belong to both the worlds simultaneously. Great was their attachment with God and great were the ways in which God showered His blessings on them. The wise men say “He is a humble giver and we are the proud beggars”. Truly great are the men who can become more humble than The Humble One.

What made men like Kabir, Chokha Mela, Tulsi Sahib, Jnaneshwar, Gora Kumbhar, Kanhopatra, Namdev and Changdev worthy of His grace? Probably their unpretentious upbringing as they all came from a modest background? But on the contrary Bulleh Shah (who belonged to the Prophet's family and was a follower of Inayat Shah,an Arain), Meerabai (Princess of Mewaad), Sidhartha (the prince of Shakya Dynasty) and Bahadur Shah Zafar(The Last Mughal) had a royal lineage? What won Him over? Virtues common in all of them, I realize, are their perseverance, modesty, detachment to the worldly possessions and their faith in their respective Masters? The world couldn't stop inflicting pain on them but they moved on fearlessly without bothering. Often their families discouraged and dissuaded them but nothing ever assuaged their love for the almighty One.I wonder what made them so detached with to world that they could go against the society, the family, the rigid rituals and could happily bear the pain that this world inflicted on them without ever deterring from the path.

No matter how much ever I reason out that this world is an illusion, it is transient; all the loved ones are swindlers and monetary gains are just as transient as this world. Nevertheless I find it difficult to shed the vanity for my heritage, my lineage, my achievements and everything else that God has blessed me with. Sometimes my ego overshadows His grace manifest. In spite of the pain of separation and rejection that He has blessed me with (so that I could decipher the true nature of the world) I, an incorrigible child, still find it difficult to stay detached to His ephemeral creations. And attached!!attached I am to this world to the level that I sometimes completely ignore His presence. But ask Him why he has sent me in this virtual Ocean when He did not want me to get drenched. I have lost the protection that He had provided me with and I am too weak to find it..Didn't He promise that He would send it back..then whats taking Him so long.. I am already diseased and infected by the worldliness.. I am heavy with the weight of sins that I have committed and unless you grant me NAAM, how do I shed it off...

More you make me wait more you'll have to work on me..So why delay..You promised me and today I ask you to keep it...


Whoever thinks that YOUR love is unconditional is fooling oneself as it comes with the condition of loving You more than anything that You have created. How do I do that without Your grace? I may not admit but the truth is that I am weak; I may not confess but I am a sinner; I may not announce but I am a conceited person; I may not affirm but I lack the wisdom, knowledge, patience, dedication and perseverance that are required to find You. I am weak but You are not so why not find me.


Meera Bai could walk on the broken glass pieces, You saved her. You could make a cow recite Vedas for Jnaneshwar, you could protect the kittens from fire for Gora Kumbhar but all that I ask for is You to make me fall in love with You. Is it too much to ask for? And if at all it is; why do u make your presence felt when You know that I am so apathetic, Why at all do u cover my shortcomings when you know that I truly deserve to be punished..Why don't you greet me as I feel so incomplete all the time and I know that it's only You who can fill the vacuum..Please bless me with your grace..Please help me fall in love with you..Help me become oblivious of this world..Please Initiate me..I need to clean the rusty chair of my heart, scrub it, scratch it, for the dust has been falling since ages. I need to bring it back to its original golden color so that You, my father can find this low being worthy of your residence..But how do I do it without the effective cleanser..

There is nothing else worthy of being asked for..My heart is distracted, my mind scattered.. I have never felt the five flaws residing in me as strongly as I do now..How do I escape their trap..Its only You who can free me of them..Pull me out of it before the whirlpool of kaal engulfs me..the anchor of my devotion has lost the grip...

I want to feel the same pull that Namdev by your grace, felt. I want to feel the same passion that Meerabai felt, I want to feel the same detachment that Siddhartha felt, I want to be the part of the same league that all these legends belonged to..I want to feel the pain of love for You..

Pyaar mangiya si toh se maine rabba
Kedi main khudayi mang li