People after people entering my life. And yet nothing kills the loneliness, nothing fills in the vacuum that u created.They all wanted to change me to suit their needs, to suit their requirements.
There is something dead in me, I have no clue what, but the other parts of me are totally inconsolable with their dead companion. Every few days, my heart starts aching and my head starts feeling heavy. My soul asks me to fight back, to wake up and to make my dreams come true. Compromises and sacrificing is not me. But the fighter is dead. People around me are happy to have found a new me. I wish they never know that I feel dead even before the death claims me.
I totally hate it when every breath of mine makes me realize that I am alive. They are the biggest burden I m carrying.I want to feel lighter. I am waiting for my physical death more intently than anyone ever have waited for anything.
I m going to Salasar they say, all that u wish for comes true and i guess i know what i wanna ask for.Please don't turn me away this time. There is no one praying for my life, not even me then why live. I m no good. There are people who want to live give them life. I want to marry death. It looks so attractive to me, so liberating.
Not in this life time I m coming back on the path. you know its not meant for fickle-minded people like me. Then why live?
Don't be so apathetic. I really can't take the pain of breathing anymore.
